26.1.2012 is 22

Post kali ni akan ditulis dlm bhs melayu utk lebih perisa perasaan..haha
Apa perasaan menjdi 22?
Seronok,nervous,xsbar dan xbest cket..
1. Seronok sbb dh 22,cntek n0 tu
2. Nervous utk khdpn yg seterusnya,xtau apa cbrn yg menanti di depan..
3. Xsabar nk mendirikan rmh tga,um0 dh mkin sesuai..hehehe
4. Xbest sbb xdpt celebrate/kuar jln2 ngn yg tsyg..frust sgt,engtkn dpt kejutan apa2 ka..
Dear,u lma dh xbg surprise kat i,mghrp gk ni..
22 ni n0 best jgk,sbb ibu lahirkan aku ketika usia ibu 22 thun..dulu ms sklh2 antra azam hidupku nk jd mcm ibu,s0 xtcpai la nmpknya hajat aku nk jdi ibu muda..apa pun abehkn study dlu..klu x,xda org nak..huhu
Apapun,aku rs puas,sbb slh satu cita2ku menjdi realiti tahun ni,iaitu bg adiah kat ibu sempena bday aku..pen parker utk ibu (bkan nk riak,cma utk engtn aku bla aku bc p0st ni lain kali) *thanx kpd voucher 1 msia gk*
Thanx to daddy,ibu,kak nadia,kak ngah n adik jgk sbb bg knangn pd ari ni :
Mkn kfc + kek wlupn smpai sna dh pkul 11 mlm..

**DAH DKT SEBULAN BRU NAK POST**

the road not taken

this story is not about me...she is someone who is now be part of my life...
it is not important who is she, but her story remind me about many things..

she's 26 and seriously thinking about her next step in life, MARRIAGE !
but as close to the date, unexpectedly she has 2 important person/guy in her life..

1st man is her boyfriend, 9 years in love..
2nd man is her colleague, just met in just 2 months...

now, she is confuse to choose between one of them...

both of them are good person, have good career, and responsible...

but, there still have pros and cons between both them..

some point for me to remember :
1. appreciate his time, love and attention towards you
2. remember what he has done for you, appreciate his sacrifice
3. love him for what he are
4. make your life with him as wonderful as both of you can be 

**to my love : I LOVE YOU FOR WHAT YOU ARE AND HOPE OUR LOVE LAST AND NEVER DIES...**

How is it going?

2011 will close it's cover..
so many things happened throughout this unspeakable year...
and makes it as one of the most memorable year for me..

my life begin with more stronger than the previous year, without my beloved father..
no perfect ceremony or gift on my birthday..(somehow, with no celebration, it is remembered too)
my life in this semester changed 360 degrees... (however more challenging in mpd's life, always feel so down and frustrated badly...)
my family's life turn into another stage..with new father and "stepsiblings", which i never imagined before...(the toughest part and the highlight in this year for me)
although there are not so dramatic in my relationship life, but.... never mind, just let the heart and mind talks about it...

*although you are smiling, it doesn't mean you do not kept something sorrow in your heart*
*although you are patient, it doesn't mean you do not kept something painful in your heart*
*although you are crying, it doesn't mean you do not satisfied on something*
*heart keeps everything safely*

my best 2011 album....

this entry will have least words than usual...

let's the pictures talk on what the story is all about...

just a simple word to note : 

these are my best part through 2011 instead of so many obstacles to face.. 

*** maybe there will be next album.... wait for that... ;)

Argggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Firstly,my weekend filled up with such a wonderful moment and amazing experience....
               ABG DIN AND KAK DAYANA WEDDING'S CEREMONY...

It's awesome.....
n people keep saying "next is your turn" to me and him...
maybe it's 5 years from now like he's always say...

however something has RUIN my sweet weekend's life....

FIRST : MY PHONE MEMORY CARD HAS CRASHED AND DELETED ALL MY LOVELY PICTURES DURING THIS EVENT......huuuaaaaaaaaaaarrrrggggggggggghhhhh!!!! MY LIFE BECOME MISERY........

SECOND : MY ASSIGNMENT DEADLINE IS ONLY 2 DAYS MORE AND I HAVEN'T STARTS ANYTHING YET AND WORSELY DON'T KNOW HOW TO DO IT... damned!!!

THIRD : MY TWILIGHT DAY IS NOT WITH HIM......feel so frustrated..

FORTH : GOT MESSAGE THAT TONIGHT THERE WILL BE MEETING....oohhhh, please help me!!!!

FIFTH : THIS COMING WEEK IS THE TOUGHEST WEEK FOR ME AND I'M NOT MENTALLY READY AT ALL....


in the same time, many distraction occur...
feel like cannot afford it anymore...
ARRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

***** JUST REALIZED THAT NOT ALL SWEET MEMORIES CAN BE VISUALISE...SOMETIME WE JUST SAVED THEM IN OUR MIND AND KEEP THEM TIGHTLY....

*****BEING WITH MANY MATURED PERSON, MARRIAGE IS NOT A SIMPLE THING....I HAVE TO PREPARE SO MANY THINGS....INSIDE AND OUTSIDE..

****LOVE HIM AS MUCH AS I WANT, AS LONGER AS I COULD LIVE IN MY OWN WAYS...

****NAJIAN, YOU HAVE MANY WAYS TO KEEP YOUR RELATIONSHIP GROWS WONDERFUL....DON'T PUSH TO HARD...IT WILL COME AS TIME GOES...


~~ unexpectedly, we went karaoke and could heard he sing...your voice was amazing...i just figured it out...
~~are very excited to be part of your family, especially be with you every second with so much love..


        p/s : still cannot be calm and stable....
               oh dear, when this disaster will end....

just a short note

just want to say :

because i make you in trouble...
for not act well...
n make you disappointed....



I'M IN MY WAY ON FINDING MY MOMENTUM BACK....
SORRRRRRYYYYYYYYYYYYYY AGAIN.........

from bottom of my heart....

for the hundreds time, always and will always...
i wanna say....